HoboJournal, 9/30/02 entry
I continue to mope and fret about money and do nothing about impending poverty--
I've given up... have no motivation and must be thinking I'll be magically rescued from this situation. What to do? I know I'm depressed and have much more to work through regarding Jessica... and jobs and life. I just don't know what to do.
What a sorry state I'm in-- I'm tired, I'm fat with a fat gut, I do no exercise, I have no spark- no fire.